We were walking.
We were walking,
and we were talking about what our future life may have in store for us.
It was night.
It was night and the only light we had were from the streetlights and the stars.
The only cars in sight were those parked on the side of the road.
I remember your hand would hold mine just moments before I thought I lost you.
And I don't understand how this world could be so cruel.
Headed to the hill so we can lay and look at the stars,
but it ended up a night we had to dodge bullets coming from a car.
Trying not to get hit,
but you did trying to cover me, it felt like I did too.
Sitting next to you while trying to keep pressure.
Blood pouring out of your side while I'm am asking God why
he wants to take you away from me.
Your blood on my hands while I hold you crying for help.
No one can hear me yell and you are too weak to stand.
Tears pouring down my face, faster than the speed of light
and I can't stop thinking that I was going to be your wife.
But here we are.
The only thing that seems to be here is my fear of losing you forever.
My phone rings and I wake up to see that you are calling me
and the whole thing is just a dream.
Stains of my wet tears tracing my face,
heart beat racing faster than a NASCAR race.
I can hear your voice.
Your only reason for calling is so you could hear mine.
To say, hi, I love you
And to say I miss you.
We stayed on the phone all night because I grew scared of the word goodbye.
Because now, goodbye seemed like it was for the end of time.
And I just witnessed what it would feel like if your time came to an end.
Telling you I just woke up from this terrible dream.
But I didn't tell you how it impacted me.
It was all just a dream.
A dream that scared me inside.
To realize that if this were to actually happen I would run and hide
from what turned into reality.
Now you constantly wonder why I look at you the way I do.
And I do because I realized how lucky I am to have you.
If I'm silent around you it's because
I'm too scared to loose you the way I did that day.
And I just can't seem to find the correct words for what I'm trying to say
However, you are here
And you tell me you will be forever.